Dancing crosses culture and brings people together. It did for my husband and me.

Dancing crosses culture and brings people together. It did for my husband and me.

My husband and I never actually dated.  Not officially.  He never asked me to dinner.  I never invited him to a movie.  We didn’t sit across from each other in a dimly-lit, over-cooled restaurant asking about family or hometowns between sips of wine.  When one of the parties can pull out a two inch file on the other there is no “getting to know you” period.

“So, I’m from Rio de Janeiro originally…”

“Yes, I read that in your program application.  I also saw that you got your law degree from a university in Bahia and recently completed your master’s in law at the State University of Rio de Janeiro.  Changing the subject, your blood pressure is fantastic!  Do you have any cardio tips?”

For his part, he’d listened to a running stream of personal revelations from me as I attempted to make each of the Fellows (him in particular) feel at home in DC.  I thought the best way to do this was to talk about my parents’ divorce and bring travel photo albums to lunch.  He’d met my closest friends within two weeks of meeting me because I’d recruited them to be student hosts for the Fellows, and he met my parents when I brought them along to karaoke with the Fellows at a bar in Adams Morgan.

He may not have had a full medical history for me, but he knew exactly who I was within a month of meeting me: a 22 year-old who excitedly brings her parents out to a bar to show off her new work colleagues.

I hid nothing.  I revealed all of me including friends, family, and cat.  The only reason I did something as insane as show the HD version of myself from the start is because it was inconceivable that we would end up in a relationship.  And I mean inconceivable literally.  I did not imagine, envision, or hypothesize any scenario in which we were more than friends.  His different nationality and culture had nothing to do it with it.  He was…is sixteen years older than I am.  His professional career at that point included naval officer and auditor with Brazil’s IRS.  My professional title at the time was “Graduate Assistant”.  We were at such different stages in our lives that all I had my sights set on was an incredibly impressive letter of recommendation from him at the end of year.

So when my friend confidently told me over dinner one Saturday night “He’s totally going to stick his tongue down your throat.”  I replied “Wha…he…I…uh…we…nooooo, he is not.”  Because I was both incredulous at the idea and painfully uncomfortable talking about physical relationships.  It was a cool evening in early October, and my friend and I were having basin sized salads before I headed out clubbing with some of the Fellows.  The Fellows from Zimbabwe and Cameroon were desperate to go out dancing, so I’d agreed to pretend I could dance and go with them.  The Brazilian said he’d come too.  The plan was for me to meet him at the metro stop near our apartments and head to Dupont Circle together.

“So you’re going to the club together,” my friend concluded.  I changed the subject.

We were headed to Cafe Citron, a club I had visited once before, and thought (wrongly) I could get to without directions.  After lapping the circle, asking for directions, and finding the other Fellows at the club, we hit the dance floor.  This was the part I had been dreading.  Besides soccer playing, the only other skill I associated with Brazil was dancing.  Samba. The Girl from Ipanema.  Carnaval.  Bossa Nova.  I imagined a country full of people who celebrated soccer victories by literally dancing, extremely well, in the streets.  I could handle the “Electric Slide”, the “Chicken Dance”, or a montage from Greece, but as we weren’t at a suburban high school homecoming, I didn’t expect to shine very brightly on the dance floor.

Fortunately, neither does he.  The Brazilian doesn’t dance.

Oh, he dances better than I do, but the music and the crowd that night kept things simple and close.  I could follow.  Not that we danced for long.

I felt the tension from the first sway of my hips.  After having lunch together for weeks, I suddenly couldn’t look him in the eye.  I looked at his shoulder, just beyond his shoulder, his feet, his forearm, his hand, his chest.  Eventually, I was down to body parts that would have been far more awkward to stare at than his eyes. So I looked up.  We made eye contact.  And he made his move.

His move was confident and calm and so wonderful.  It was the unhurried and sure kiss of a grown man.  Thank god, we got married because after a minute of kissing, I was spoiled forever for mid-twenty grad students.

We left the club a couple.  Not dating.  Not open to other people.  We left together.

Not that we told anyone.  Why cause a fuss if it wasn’t going to work out?  But by Christmas break we’d said I love you and it was time to tell my family I had fallen for a Brazilian, atheist, sixteen-years my elder, who was in the states for only another seven months.

It went better than I expected.